Last night I dreamt
Bad guys were surrounding me They wanted something I did not want to give I awoke afraid It was midnight My son’s small foot pressed against my back I was alone and not alone The house creaked and rocked This is the time When all my fears and worries come alive Crawling into my bed to haunt me But I must be brave, for I am a mother Everyone I know is anxious Tight bellies that ache, night terrors that wake A friend asks how I am so calm When her feelings are bubbling on the surface I didn’t have an answer for her then Now, in the middle of the night Searching for a pill to soothe my troubled thoughts I contemplate this question How am I so calm When the people in charge Seem to be on a mission To destroy all life on the planet? How am I so calm When everyone around me Seems to be dying of cancer Or some other awful disease? How am I so calm When my community is being torn apart By mental illness Alcoholism and drug addiction? How am I so calm When this is the world My children will inherit After I'm gone In this blackest of nights I say prayers of gratitude Thank you God, thank you God Thank you God My heart stops racing I begin to relax, Now I remember How I am so calm I am so calm Because there is nothing I can do That will change the outcome All I can do is thank God for what I have Anxiety is the feeling we get When we are trying to control Something that is Uncontrollable I am of the unpopular opinion That I do not have control Over anything other than My own thoughts I am of the unpopular opinion That death is inevitable And I honor the animal By eating it I am of the unpopular opinion That no matter what happens It is what was meant to be So just let it go Or maybe I am not so calm at all I am the storm about to wake And it’s not me, but it’s the bad guys Who should be afraid
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April 2022
AuthorSince becoming a mom to a little boy with Trisomy 21 I have written a lot about Down syndrome and disabilities. I am a storyteller, wife and mom to a teen and a toddler. Life is busy! Categories
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